Me...messed

It feels like there is so much change happening in my life at the moment, yet if I stop and think about it, I can't place a single thing. This semester, although my last, is going to be the hardest...mixed feeling about it.

I had a prophesy that God was going to be changing a few things in my life and damn, He's doing a good job of it. I hardly know what to do anymore. Just hanging on, and focusing on God a lot. It feels like half of what I used to just take for granted is being ripped out of my life, shaken up, and placed back in.

Last night, I ended up playing drums for the service rather than singing, and wishing I was singing rather than playing drums, when I promised myself that singing would never get to a higher priority than drumming...gah!! What the frig is wrong with me??

I'm at one of those points in life where it feels like you're not actually really doing anything, just coasting along in a straight line, instead of going up. Well, anyway, so to leave you with a messed blog entry, I just had to write this stuff out for myself.

Cheerio, D-Man

Life in Overtime

Humdihum...Overtime tonight...(BTW that's the coolest name whoever thought it up! :) ). Illuminus is doing a P&W session for all y'all P&W homies out there, yeah! Gonna rock so damn hard!!

I finally got over this darn cold that I got on Friday...it's probably been the worst cold I've ever had...no really! *sigh* Anyway...I can sing!! LAAAAAA! Any coughing is now minuscule..muhahahaaaaa!!!!

And now for a side note, my latest fashion sense is telling me to go for dreadies...I don't know whether to listen to it or not, but it sounds damn tempting once my hair is long enough or something...cheerio!

Thursday the 28th

Well last night was alright. Lol, I was told at the last minute that I was leading...doh THWAP!!! Way to be put in the hot spot...but...s'all good, went ok, can breathe again.
Erk, woke up this morning feeling like crap, had a shower feeling like crap...got on the bus......yeah. But hey! At least my cold is almost gone right? Can't wait until the weekend, it's gonna be grrreat!

Ever gotten that feeling that something is just around the corner, but the more you try and see what it is, the more the corner grows to infinitum? hmmm, I've had that feeling all week and it SUCKS!!!

Bonfire night on Saturday, woot! So y'all better be there...(you know who you are, ya bums!) It's gonna be awesome as usual.

And now for God. I really don't know what God is doing in my life at the moment. It feels a bit like a slump, I've just been getting into the Word heaps lately, and stuff, but yeah, can't wait for Sunday. In His time not mine anyway, He knows better than me :).

Ta ta for now, back to the real (or really boring) world of non-bloginess.

Work

Work has it's ups and downs. As one wise man put it, work is doing something you enjoy 25% of the time and hate the other 75%. At the moment I enjoy work, except for the long hours of course (who doesn't)....

However, Microsoft Visual Basic 2003 takes to friggin' long to install!!!!!!!!

Other notes of interest....check out this guy's website...the old drummer from Hillsong, making his own waves, he's a legend!! sooo..... CHECK HIM OUT!!

That is all...go about your daily mundane lives of non blogginess now.

Holidays & life in general

Well, I finished all of my exams (which were much easier than any other exam I've ever done). Holidays began or rather full time work did. Muchly suckness...ah well, it's worth the money I suppose...just can be a bit of a drag is all. Saw Batman begins last night, and yes, it rocks, and yes, I want that car :P. Going to see War of the Worlds tonight. Think I'll be absolutely trashed by Sunday. Ladida.

And now for my random comment of the day:
SPORK!

and now for another random comment:
Stiny get me a danish!

and another:
What is a simple bite on the butt among friends?

ah....it's the simple things in life we do to get ourselves by.

Random joke of the day:
Where would we be without women...in the garden of Eden! HA!! Don't hurt me please.

Been going through a bit of friend withdrawal this week actually. Gone from seeing at least one everyday, to at least one maybe twice a week... le sigh...God is good :) The more I come to realize that the more I realize that I don't know anything at all.

Note to self: get more friends in on the blogginess, it's much more interesting that way. And for all y'all reading mine...GET OFFA YA BUTTS AND START BLOGGING!!

A single moment

An old poem written by me, was on the netwaves but I took it off, I think it is sufficiently worthy to see the light of blogness once again...

Here I am, in this lonely place again.
If I close my eyes, I see your face again.
I love to hold you close, whenever you are away.
I miss you dearly, and wish you could stay.

I miss the tender moments, that we spent in forever.
The laughter and tears that told, we were meant together.
I long to see you again, to look at your perfect face.
One last perfect moment, one last sweet embrace.

All over again, as I lay down for sleep.
I think strange thoughts, and silently weep.
I wonder what you're thinking, and if you feel the same.
Are you still there? Are your thoughts as plain?

I pray to God, that He will get me through.
This time of solitude, spent without you.
I wish I could turn back time, and hold it there.
When we were together, and could but stare.

Into each others eyes, forgetting everything.
Locked into a perfect moment, barely contained from singing.
Oh how I miss you, and cannot wait for your return.
I will wait for you only, until time itself adjourns.

Forever I will be here, longing for you.
Forever I will stand, forever stay true.
Love is a strange thing, and life stranger still.
But the power of it is, that wait eternally I will.

Love demands it, and I could not do less.
Than try my hardest, do my best.
To get through these pains, just to hold you again.
Until such a time when, I can call you more than friend.

'Those' times

God is good. This I know. Despite everything else I can hold onto that fact and trust that He has everything in hand. It is very challenging sometimes trying to surrender to Him but not even knowing the first step, or sub-consciously denying the fact, but I'll get there.

Heard the song "Chosen as Mine" by Hillsong? Awesome song, the chorus goes:

Cries in the desert, My child, I hear them
Tears in the valley, My lovely, I count them
You're so precious; you were on My mind as I died
I love you still, always will
Chosen as Mine

Suppose I'm just going through one of 'those' times at the moment, ah well. Better next entry ;)

Best Line in any song

Exams soon. Almost finished my assignments (finally!!). Crossover tonight, should be interesting. The best line in any song, from Further by Pillar: 'I'm further; further from myself; when I'm next to You; when I run to You'.

Ladida

Hmm lets see, got a helluva lot of work still to do, but got some of it out of the way. Illuminus still rocks, drums...needs more practice as usual, I think I've entered full work mode now, don't need as much sleep, can work for 9 hours straight and still have energy at the end of the day..woot :) Exams soon *shudder* Check out my black and white rendering of an assignment

New space

Woot, I have a personal space.

1st blog entry. I'm am getting very sick of uni lifestyle at the moment can't wait for holidays when my brain doesn't overload from 6:30am to 9:30pm every weekday. Youth service last Sunday. Went off! Illuminus just gets better and better every time we get up there. Should get some work done but can't think straight, maybe I'll go and practice drums for a bit, should clear me up. So much to do so little time.

Anyway this blog thing is cool as, way to go Microsoft for giving us yet another technological toy to waste time in :)

Cheers, Damian