Well, here we are again. At last, I thought we wouldn't make it...there were some times when I thought we were done for but God pulled us through. I've been wanting to tell you...
If only it was as easy as it is when looking at it in the past. I've had a really rough week this week. I feel like I've been walking on a knife edge and it's only been getting worse. Through it all I've been feeling that God is just saying hold on, you can make it, focus on Me and My promises for you, but damn it can be hard to have faith sometimes.
This week, just about everything is suddenly...blah...right in my face. It's not the most pleasant feeling in the world.
I've come to a small realization that God is in total control...not that I didn't know it before but you ever know something and then it clicks? Well it's like that. I still don't know that He's in TOTAL control...if I did, I would have total faith and that would be awesome...but over my lifetime He's slowly bringing me round. So yeah, I'm holding on, still, until He comes through for me. I mean how awesome is it that, despite everything we think we go through...God's got it all planned out for you already, and even when things don't work out, He's got more ahead for you than you could ever imagine!
Piano still rocks. I've been getting it to the point where I can actually play not to badly and it just...rocks. Yeah. I still enjoy drums better though. More and more I can see where my life is headed...it should be fun!
I've decided I need to really get stuck into the Bible. Since the end of last year some time I've really been having trouble finding time to read it...and I think that's what half of my problem is. So yeah. At least half an hour a day if I can.
I've also decided to start on a regime of sit-ups and push-ups everyday. No reason..that I want to say :P
Anyhoo...
Cheerio, D-Man
Proverb: "Life is incomplete without love."
Tuesday, 7 February 2006
Monday, 30 January 2006
Reload '06...what a blast!
Well I'm back from Reload '06..it was totally AWESOME! The whole focus was about discipline your world. About bringing your separate worlds whatever they be (school, home, work, etc.) together and really just letting God work through you in them.
About 8 of us went down to Phillip Island for 4 days...(starting on Thursday) If you missed it, then you missed out! Big time! (Sorry Mils!) We had an AWESOME time fellowshipping with each other, connecting with God, learning to connect with people. Everyone was very incredibly tired afterward (not as bad as youth camp though), but it was worth it. The days consisted of a worship and preaching session in the morning after breakfast, followed by lunch and workshops, then (generally) by a couple of hours of swimming, resting, cards, activities, etc. Tea followed, as well as more worship and preaching. Then yep....karaoke!! Woot! I would like to say that I didn't participate in the karaoke and make a dismal failure of it...but that would be a lie. Renae and Jess also went up and sang, although they did much better than I :P. We managed to snag one of the so called 'Bling Men' from the convention, so we'll be hanging him up in the hall...yeah...
Everyone got heaps out of it and grew in God. I pray that we continue to do so out of such an environment and are able to put into practice what we have learned.
Anyway. next on the list....Manifest TD6 (hopefully), and Ignite '06...awwwww yeah! If you didn't catch reload, then I'll hopefully see you at those two, and if not well hey...there's always next year right?
Cheerio, D-Man
About 8 of us went down to Phillip Island for 4 days...(starting on Thursday) If you missed it, then you missed out! Big time! (Sorry Mils!) We had an AWESOME time fellowshipping with each other, connecting with God, learning to connect with people. Everyone was very incredibly tired afterward (not as bad as youth camp though), but it was worth it. The days consisted of a worship and preaching session in the morning after breakfast, followed by lunch and workshops, then (generally) by a couple of hours of swimming, resting, cards, activities, etc. Tea followed, as well as more worship and preaching. Then yep....karaoke!! Woot! I would like to say that I didn't participate in the karaoke and make a dismal failure of it...but that would be a lie. Renae and Jess also went up and sang, although they did much better than I :P. We managed to snag one of the so called 'Bling Men' from the convention, so we'll be hanging him up in the hall...yeah...
Everyone got heaps out of it and grew in God. I pray that we continue to do so out of such an environment and are able to put into practice what we have learned.
Anyway. next on the list....Manifest TD6 (hopefully), and Ignite '06...awwwww yeah! If you didn't catch reload, then I'll hopefully see you at those two, and if not well hey...there's always next year right?
Cheerio, D-Man
Monday, 23 January 2006
Faith, marriage and reminisce
Hey guys! Just letting you know, I'm feeling heaps better today...under the surface there are still doubts, but I've decided to let go of them...so they aren't at the forefront of my mind. I had a big talk with my best mate yesterday. We are opposite kind of people. Whenever he seems down I can usually cheer him up, and vice versa, and it's usually one or the other never both together, so we balance each other pretty well. I am more determined than ever to hold onto the promises of God, I've got them now and I won't ever let 'em go. Damn straight!
I can't wait until I get married. It's gonna rock so damn hard! My wife is just gonna lift my world. Not that there won't ever be mistakes or challenges to get past, but that's all part of the deal, and I am gonna love every single moment I am with her!
Life is in a real slump these last few weeks, with holidays on, nothing much has been happening. Weekends are a highlight...hanging with friends and chillin' with God. I've felt really distant from everything though. Can't wait for everything to just get back to normal...or...as normal as life is for me :P.
Listening to United - To the Ends of the Earth. Damn good album! I got it about 3 years ago (during 1st year of uni) and listened to it literally 24-7 for at least 8 months. Listening to it now brings me back a heap of good memories, especially of Illuminus, the youth band. We rock for God! And it has been totally awesome to be able to be included with all of the band members lives. I am living in a world of Giants and am humbled in their presence. It has been a total honor my friends! Stay true to God!
BTW: I'm trying to put headings on all my photos..there's just so damn many it might take a little. Things are slowly getting done around here, so check back anytime.
Anyhoo cheerio, D-Man
Proverb: "To the world you may be one person, but to one person, you may be the world..."
I can't wait until I get married. It's gonna rock so damn hard! My wife is just gonna lift my world. Not that there won't ever be mistakes or challenges to get past, but that's all part of the deal, and I am gonna love every single moment I am with her!
Life is in a real slump these last few weeks, with holidays on, nothing much has been happening. Weekends are a highlight...hanging with friends and chillin' with God. I've felt really distant from everything though. Can't wait for everything to just get back to normal...or...as normal as life is for me :P.
Listening to United - To the Ends of the Earth. Damn good album! I got it about 3 years ago (during 1st year of uni) and listened to it literally 24-7 for at least 8 months. Listening to it now brings me back a heap of good memories, especially of Illuminus, the youth band. We rock for God! And it has been totally awesome to be able to be included with all of the band members lives. I am living in a world of Giants and am humbled in their presence. It has been a total honor my friends! Stay true to God!
BTW: I'm trying to put headings on all my photos..there's just so damn many it might take a little. Things are slowly getting done around here, so check back anytime.
Anyhoo cheerio, D-Man
Proverb: "To the world you may be one person, but to one person, you may be the world..."
Sunday, 22 January 2006
Day by day
Hey guys, yep you guessed it. Another blog entry! Woot! Not much really to write, but I have written a new poem (with Missy Higgins playing in the background so you know it's gonna be sappy and wildly exaggerated...) No particular reason. Just yeah, not feeling the greatest. But hey! I'll get there...yeah, so don't worry.
Oh and in other news...this blog has been viewed 1000 times! Wow, I feel special...or something...yeah, anyway....
Day by Day
I can remember when, I was safe
In a world of my own, my creation
Locked away in my tower, with no key
Hidden away from love, nothing to see
You saw something in me, I don't understand
Was it an innocence, in my land?
Locked in my tower with, nothing to be?
You found the door, and set me free
And for a small time, all was bright
I believed in you, shining your light
And together we thought, in our own world
That together we'd be, as love, our wings unfurled
But I had to leave, for a time
Thinking all the while that, it was a crime
I thought of you, everyday
And to see you soon, I prayed
Something happened there, when I was not there
Something changed in you, and I, fell into despair
That I would not find, you ever again
Would not see my rescuer, anymore then
I have been told that, all is well
Just keep holding on, time will tell
And I will have faith, but I'm not the same
Locked in my tower, I've been changed
And it is hard for me, to hold you
To my heart for next time, through and through
I just don't understand, was I not right?
Was I not good enough? did I, lose the fight?
Did you find someone better, than me, so free?
Was I a test to see if you, could unlock me?
Will you ever come back to give, me my key?
To hide me away, for none to see?
Here I am, torn, broken and confused
Feeling emotion, feeling, hurt and used
I don't blame you, who could?
I'm happy for you, as I should
I can't expect you, to change at all
For to do so, is to, lie and fall
Be true to yourself as, you were, when
You first found me and, find me then
I will hide away, in my tower
And lock the door with, all my power
I will lock the door, throw away the key
And wait for you, wait and see
I'll wait for that day, when you come nigh
And call for me, low and high
Day by day I wait, and behold a sight
Of a time before, when I, was your knight
I will fight for you, when you return
If nothing else I have, to learn
You can count on me, to be true
Wait I will until then, to be with you
Day by Day
Cheerio, D-Man
Proverb: "A problem will always be a problem until you can sneak up on it from an unsuspected angle."
Oh and in other news...this blog has been viewed 1000 times! Wow, I feel special...or something...yeah, anyway....
Day by Day
I can remember when, I was safe
In a world of my own, my creation
Locked away in my tower, with no key
Hidden away from love, nothing to see
You saw something in me, I don't understand
Was it an innocence, in my land?
Locked in my tower with, nothing to be?
You found the door, and set me free
And for a small time, all was bright
I believed in you, shining your light
And together we thought, in our own world
That together we'd be, as love, our wings unfurled
But I had to leave, for a time
Thinking all the while that, it was a crime
I thought of you, everyday
And to see you soon, I prayed
Something happened there, when I was not there
Something changed in you, and I, fell into despair
That I would not find, you ever again
Would not see my rescuer, anymore then
I have been told that, all is well
Just keep holding on, time will tell
And I will have faith, but I'm not the same
Locked in my tower, I've been changed
And it is hard for me, to hold you
To my heart for next time, through and through
I just don't understand, was I not right?
Was I not good enough? did I, lose the fight?
Did you find someone better, than me, so free?
Was I a test to see if you, could unlock me?
Will you ever come back to give, me my key?
To hide me away, for none to see?
Here I am, torn, broken and confused
Feeling emotion, feeling, hurt and used
I don't blame you, who could?
I'm happy for you, as I should
I can't expect you, to change at all
For to do so, is to, lie and fall
Be true to yourself as, you were, when
You first found me and, find me then
I will hide away, in my tower
And lock the door with, all my power
I will lock the door, throw away the key
And wait for you, wait and see
I'll wait for that day, when you come nigh
And call for me, low and high
Day by day I wait, and behold a sight
Of a time before, when I, was your knight
I will fight for you, when you return
If nothing else I have, to learn
You can count on me, to be true
Wait I will until then, to be with you
Day by Day
Cheerio, D-Man
Proverb: "A problem will always be a problem until you can sneak up on it from an unsuspected angle."
Wednesday, 18 January 2006
Depression, moving, and Uni
With a lot of thought....I STILL don't know what to write about! I've had a really tough week this week because of various things and I've been down a LOT! But I'm sick of being sick of it and I can't be stuffed writing about it...really! Let's just say I've been feeling not good enough for anything at all..ever...So, instead I'm going to take a step forward and focus on the positive of the week and see where I go from there.
Phil and LeeAnne moved into their new house on Monday. It is a totally AWESOME house!! So big and...big. Yep. I'm happy for them, they deserve it. I wen't over there at about 5:30PM to help with the moving and stuff...didn't stop really until about 11:00PM although a couple of mates didn't stop until around 3:30AM!! It was a huge job.
I have gotten my results back, and applied for a graduation in May. I'm finished Uni, it's official. So now I guess I'm a 'working class man' whatever that means...although I still don't have my degree yet..officially..
Faith in God is a very good thing. I've lost focus over this week, and that is a very BAD thing. The worst is though that even though I'm not depressed about what happened anymore, I'm depressed about being depressed. How silly can you get? I mean really? It's like a never ending cycle of depression. So I'm stopping it in it's tracks and going back to what I should be focusing on anyway. God. Awwwww yeah.
Cheerio, D-Man
Proverb: "Love is its own reward."
Phil and LeeAnne moved into their new house on Monday. It is a totally AWESOME house!! So big and...big. Yep. I'm happy for them, they deserve it. I wen't over there at about 5:30PM to help with the moving and stuff...didn't stop really until about 11:00PM although a couple of mates didn't stop until around 3:30AM!! It was a huge job.
I have gotten my results back, and applied for a graduation in May. I'm finished Uni, it's official. So now I guess I'm a 'working class man' whatever that means...although I still don't have my degree yet..officially..
Faith in God is a very good thing. I've lost focus over this week, and that is a very BAD thing. The worst is though that even though I'm not depressed about what happened anymore, I'm depressed about being depressed. How silly can you get? I mean really? It's like a never ending cycle of depression. So I'm stopping it in it's tracks and going back to what I should be focusing on anyway. God. Awwwww yeah.
Cheerio, D-Man
Proverb: "Love is its own reward."
Sunday, 15 January 2006
Thursday, 12 January 2006
The Ghost of Uni Past
Well, my first week of full time work has just about come to a close. Not too different from casual work, but it still takes it out of you. I woke up regretting my alarm almost every day, which I haven't done for at least two months. Sorry I don't have my holiday photos up yet. Hopefully I'll have them up next week if I can remember to bring my CD with me before running out the door.
This week has been interesting in regards to self identification and character growth. I feel like God's showing me a lot about myself, and a lot of it isn't that good. But hey, at least He's working on me :) At least I can recognize it now. A lot of questions have been popping up about a lot of different subjects, and I don't have answers to them all, but I believe God is revealing the answers in time.
My lecturer has said that if I redo my assignment before the 16th Jan, he will give me a pass. Woot! I have redone it and handed it in. So that's it for uni from me! Finally finished.
Oh yeah, and how good is Narnia anyway! I loved it!! And that's all I'll say on that...
Resurrecting an old tradition...Proverbs! Yep :P I found a really good one the other day: "Love isn't love until you give it away." Awwwwww yeah....
Cheerio, D-Man
This week has been interesting in regards to self identification and character growth. I feel like God's showing me a lot about myself, and a lot of it isn't that good. But hey, at least He's working on me :) At least I can recognize it now. A lot of questions have been popping up about a lot of different subjects, and I don't have answers to them all, but I believe God is revealing the answers in time.
My lecturer has said that if I redo my assignment before the 16th Jan, he will give me a pass. Woot! I have redone it and handed it in. So that's it for uni from me! Finally finished.
Oh yeah, and how good is Narnia anyway! I loved it!! And that's all I'll say on that...
Resurrecting an old tradition...Proverbs! Yep :P I found a really good one the other day: "Love isn't love until you give it away." Awwwwww yeah....
Cheerio, D-Man
Tuesday, 10 January 2006
My trip to Brisbane
Well, I'm back. Sorry it's taken so long to write, I haven't had a lot of time, especially on the net...so...yeah...
Brisbane was awesome! Apart from the weather, which I already knew was going to be horrendous. Nathan and Christine came up as well (my brother and sister in law)
We went to Warner Bros Movieworld for a day...(I'll have pics soon, I promise) It was ok, not as good as Dreamworld though. One of the rides, a water ride, had a sign cautioning that people might get wet! We figured it must've been by sweating in the big massive line out in the sun for 2 hours...yep. Ice skating was good also, although the rink was closed until the 2nd of January.
Christmas itself roxored. I woke up at around 6:30 (QLD time) by myself...without an alarm, as is my custom on Christmas...don't ask me why, it's as freaky to me as it is to you...But yeah, the day started of quite well...with you guessed it...SMS's!! Yay!! How good is it seriously! I have an awesome bunch of friends. Then the day progressed by raiding the stocking and opening presents. Breakfast I hear you say? Pfft what of it! We went to my aunty's for lunch and tea, which was ok, but the best part of my day was definitely 6:30am to 12:00pm ish.
New Years was another highlight, we had a friends and family party at my aunty's place, but there's not so much to talk about that day. Went swimming against caution, but it was ok, coz my ears didn't play up...(long story, I'll only tell it if you seriously POST me on the subject!!)
We went to the beach on the final night for tea, and played boche in the sand, there were all these little crabs running around! So cute!! Yep, anyway...We walked along the beach for about an hour. I love it!!
The rest of the time was basically spent watching movies, or shopping...(mmm shopping....)
Then packing started...and the long trip home...and here I am! Woot.
Cheerio, D-Man
Brisbane was awesome! Apart from the weather, which I already knew was going to be horrendous. Nathan and Christine came up as well (my brother and sister in law)
We went to Warner Bros Movieworld for a day...(I'll have pics soon, I promise) It was ok, not as good as Dreamworld though. One of the rides, a water ride, had a sign cautioning that people might get wet! We figured it must've been by sweating in the big massive line out in the sun for 2 hours...yep. Ice skating was good also, although the rink was closed until the 2nd of January.
Christmas itself roxored. I woke up at around 6:30 (QLD time) by myself...without an alarm, as is my custom on Christmas...don't ask me why, it's as freaky to me as it is to you...But yeah, the day started of quite well...with you guessed it...SMS's!! Yay!! How good is it seriously! I have an awesome bunch of friends. Then the day progressed by raiding the stocking and opening presents. Breakfast I hear you say? Pfft what of it! We went to my aunty's for lunch and tea, which was ok, but the best part of my day was definitely 6:30am to 12:00pm ish.
New Years was another highlight, we had a friends and family party at my aunty's place, but there's not so much to talk about that day. Went swimming against caution, but it was ok, coz my ears didn't play up...(long story, I'll only tell it if you seriously POST me on the subject!!)
We went to the beach on the final night for tea, and played boche in the sand, there were all these little crabs running around! So cute!! Yep, anyway...We walked along the beach for about an hour. I love it!!
The rest of the time was basically spent watching movies, or shopping...(mmm shopping....)
Then packing started...and the long trip home...and here I am! Woot.
Cheerio, D-Man
Sunday, 11 December 2005
These blues, shopping and BBQ's
I am on a real downer at the moment. It started on Friday and it's just been there in the background. I know it's not cool, but I really don't know what to do about it. I got my results back. Failed one subject. Really sucks if I can't change my lecturer's mind, coz I'll have to go back to uni for another six months to do 1 subject. Erk. I really just don't know what to do anymore, and it's frustrating because I should. I suppose the only thing really to do is get into God.
I see myself slipping further and further away from what should be, without anyway of changing. I've been getting really frustrated with everything lately, getting cut really easily, and I know it's not a good thing, but I just can't seem to do anything about it. Switchfoot's song - These Blues off their Nothing is Sound album sums it up rather nicely. 'Is this the new year, or just another desperation. Is there anything at all besides these blues.'
Going to have Youth Band break-up tomorrow. Should be pretty good, we're doing a kris-kringle BBQ, I've been pumped all week for it, but at the moment, all I really want to do is go home and sleep. I have to do my Christmas shopping sometime this week before I go up to Brisbane to see my folks. Should be fun...I like shopping, what can I say? Yeah, anyway...new word for the day: Hebeashebea...was being spontaneous. It seems to be what I do best. :P
Cheerio, D-Man
I see myself slipping further and further away from what should be, without anyway of changing. I've been getting really frustrated with everything lately, getting cut really easily, and I know it's not a good thing, but I just can't seem to do anything about it. Switchfoot's song - These Blues off their Nothing is Sound album sums it up rather nicely. 'Is this the new year, or just another desperation. Is there anything at all besides these blues.'
Going to have Youth Band break-up tomorrow. Should be pretty good, we're doing a kris-kringle BBQ, I've been pumped all week for it, but at the moment, all I really want to do is go home and sleep. I have to do my Christmas shopping sometime this week before I go up to Brisbane to see my folks. Should be fun...I like shopping, what can I say? Yeah, anyway...new word for the day: Hebeashebea...was being spontaneous. It seems to be what I do best. :P
Cheerio, D-Man
Sunday, 4 December 2005
Smashed upside the face
Isn't it amazing how so often we can get caught up in our own lives, unaware of things happening around us, and then all of a sudden our protective bubble gets smashed and all we have left to hold on to is the promises of God? Hmmm...yeah, well that's happened to me this week. Stuff I thought I could handle, I obviously can't and now I keep dwelling on it instead of giving it to God. Kinda sucks for me I suppose, I'm pretty smashed at the moment and have given any expectations for the future back to God. I have no idea what to do, except trust that God will get me through this.
In other news, I'm going up to Brisbane for two weeks over Christmas, kinda looking forward to seeing the folks and dreading the weather at the same time, but hey. Anyway, sorry to bog you down with all that.
Until next time, D-Man
In other news, I'm going up to Brisbane for two weeks over Christmas, kinda looking forward to seeing the folks and dreading the weather at the same time, but hey. Anyway, sorry to bog you down with all that.
Until next time, D-Man
Monday, 28 November 2005
Random tests rock
Don't you just love random tests...this one was kinda interesting and a bit freaky...not completely correct though...
***The Keys to Your Heart***
You are attracted to good manners and elegance.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/
Sorry to just leave you with that...I haven't been able to write anything REALLY interesting lately, but I'll try in the near future so stay posted...(or you could just post )
Anyhoo, Cheerio, D-Man
***The Keys to Your Heart***
You are attracted to good manners and elegance.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/
Sorry to just leave you with that...I haven't been able to write anything REALLY interesting lately, but I'll try in the near future so stay posted...(or you could just post )
Anyhoo, Cheerio, D-Man
Wednesday, 23 November 2005
Woot! New photos!!
Yes! Finally! I have new photos for my blog, from camp, the bonfire and a random night at Phil's place...so...check them out!! I will add descriptions when I have time, (been kind of stealing seconds to put them up...)
Cheerio, D-Man
Cheerio, D-Man
Monday, 21 November 2005
Exams = done
Well, it's done, all exams are finished, thank goodness, I don't really feel a sense of achievement though, this last week has been really hectic and I'm just tired. So much stuff keeps happening in my life, I haven't had a normal week for about 7 months.
In other news: Giant cockroaches invade New York!! No really! I'm joking...yeah...
I can play piano heaps better now though, I can finally sight read chords and figure out bars of other stuff, starting to do a little bit of improv, not much yet though...aww yeah. I am completely baffled as to why I was able to pick up the piano so much in a matter of 3 or so months.
Hmm, so much change..my entire perception on life has changed in the last 6 months and it's hard to keep up with stuff anymore....all just part of growing up I suppose.
More when I get it, D-Man
In other news: Giant cockroaches invade New York!! No really! I'm joking...yeah...
I can play piano heaps better now though, I can finally sight read chords and figure out bars of other stuff, starting to do a little bit of improv, not much yet though...aww yeah. I am completely baffled as to why I was able to pick up the piano so much in a matter of 3 or so months.
Hmm, so much change..my entire perception on life has changed in the last 6 months and it's hard to keep up with stuff anymore....all just part of growing up I suppose.
More when I get it, D-Man
Wednesday, 16 November 2005
Cards, Dreams, Uni life, and other situations
A helluva lot of crap has been happening in my life lately, I think God has got me in the right place though, because I've been at almost perfect peace in these situations. I've been praying about it heaps and giving stuff to God, trying to make sure that I'm following His will and not acting out of my own desires. I think I'm under attack at the moment, but I have no idea why, except that maybe I'm on the right track. Damn it cuts though...makes me angry :)...yeah, but anyway, gotta keep praying, what else can I do?
Found a bible passage the other day that summed it pretty much up for me, 2 Timothy 3:1-9, New Century Version:
"1 Remember this! In the last days there will be many troubles, 2 because people will love themselves, love money, brag, and be proud. They will say evil things against others and will not obey their parents or be thankful or be the kind of people God wants. 3 They will not love others, will refuse to forgive, will gossip, and will not control themselves. They will be cruel, will hate what is good, 4 will turn against their friends, and will do foolish things without thinking. They will be conceited, will love pleasure instead of God, 5 and will act as if they serve God but will not have His power. Stay away from those people. 6 Some of them go into homes and get control of silly women who are full of sin and are led by many evil desires. 7 These women are always learning new teachings, but they are never able to understand the truth fully. 8 Just as Jannes and Jamres were against Moses, these people are against the truth. Their thinking has been ruined, and they have failed in trying to follow the faith. 9 But they will not be successful in what they do, because as with Jannes and Jambres, everyone will see that they are foolish."
I wrote out my dreams for the future the other day, as well as my vision, mission and purpose (all four are correlated)....it made me realize that there is so much more to it that I hadn't previously realized. A lot of stuff is going to have to happen that isn't even really related to my main dream before it can really come to pass. God's gonna have to do a crapload in my life, but that's good for me.
I have a ton of assignment work to do and not enough time to really do it in, unfortunately all my assignments are due in week 12...this week being week 11, erk...but hey, when it's over it's over....awwww yeah.
I've been having funky dreams lately, can't really remember them except that they weren't quite right, except for this one I had on Monday night last week, it was so vivid! For instance walking along a road for hours and hours and actually remembering everything that happened rather than in a normal dream where you might be walking and it would cut to the next scene with the impression that time had passed. There was this one point in the dream were (and I won't go into specifics because it's to personal) someone made it clear to me that I should be very careful about who I give my heart to, and I replied that I would give it to the person that God had for me and no one else, which they accepted. I think it was God inspired myself, just because of the timing, the vividness, the fact that I can still remember it after a week, the fact that God was in my dream (probably has to be a first for me), and yeah, just the stuff that was happening in my life at the time.
Oh and Phase Ten (aka Frustration) the card game is a totally awesome game...(so's card house building, got to 14.5 stories the other day..beat my dad's record of 14 finally!! woot!!) had heaps of fun with of over the last week. tis the shiznit....say that really fast 10 times and I'll give you a gold star :)
But anyhoo, I better let you get back to your mundane non-blogginess life :P Stay totally awesome for a while at least...
Cheerio, D-Man
...sorry no proverb today...I did have one...really...but I forgot...erk...yeah...maybe next time...
Found a bible passage the other day that summed it pretty much up for me, 2 Timothy 3:1-9, New Century Version:
"1 Remember this! In the last days there will be many troubles, 2 because people will love themselves, love money, brag, and be proud. They will say evil things against others and will not obey their parents or be thankful or be the kind of people God wants. 3 They will not love others, will refuse to forgive, will gossip, and will not control themselves. They will be cruel, will hate what is good, 4 will turn against their friends, and will do foolish things without thinking. They will be conceited, will love pleasure instead of God, 5 and will act as if they serve God but will not have His power. Stay away from those people. 6 Some of them go into homes and get control of silly women who are full of sin and are led by many evil desires. 7 These women are always learning new teachings, but they are never able to understand the truth fully. 8 Just as Jannes and Jamres were against Moses, these people are against the truth. Their thinking has been ruined, and they have failed in trying to follow the faith. 9 But they will not be successful in what they do, because as with Jannes and Jambres, everyone will see that they are foolish."
I wrote out my dreams for the future the other day, as well as my vision, mission and purpose (all four are correlated)....it made me realize that there is so much more to it that I hadn't previously realized. A lot of stuff is going to have to happen that isn't even really related to my main dream before it can really come to pass. God's gonna have to do a crapload in my life, but that's good for me.
I have a ton of assignment work to do and not enough time to really do it in, unfortunately all my assignments are due in week 12...this week being week 11, erk...but hey, when it's over it's over....awwww yeah.
I've been having funky dreams lately, can't really remember them except that they weren't quite right, except for this one I had on Monday night last week, it was so vivid! For instance walking along a road for hours and hours and actually remembering everything that happened rather than in a normal dream where you might be walking and it would cut to the next scene with the impression that time had passed. There was this one point in the dream were (and I won't go into specifics because it's to personal) someone made it clear to me that I should be very careful about who I give my heart to, and I replied that I would give it to the person that God had for me and no one else, which they accepted. I think it was God inspired myself, just because of the timing, the vividness, the fact that I can still remember it after a week, the fact that God was in my dream (probably has to be a first for me), and yeah, just the stuff that was happening in my life at the time.
Oh and Phase Ten (aka Frustration) the card game is a totally awesome game...(so's card house building, got to 14.5 stories the other day..beat my dad's record of 14 finally!! woot!!) had heaps of fun with of over the last week. tis the shiznit....say that really fast 10 times and I'll give you a gold star :)
But anyhoo, I better let you get back to your mundane non-blogginess life :P Stay totally awesome for a while at least...
Cheerio, D-Man
...sorry no proverb today...I did have one...really...but I forgot...erk...yeah...maybe next time...
Monday, 7 November 2005
The end of it all....finally!
Almost exams, I'm going through study week at the moment, soon, my pretties, soon it will all be over! *manic laugh* ...or something...anyways, life is coasting at the moment. The good the bad and the not so ugly have all happened and continue to happen daily, but hey, thats life. All in all it's a good life.
I've been going through a bit of one of "those times", but God's getting me through it, heaps of stuff has happened recently, and I've been getting worn down...feeling like I've had a woolen blanket wrapped around my head, and that I'm not good enough and all of that crap that happens when you just don't really have enough energy to do anything or feel anything. Been really focusing on my role in relationships with people and what God wants me to step up and be as I become a man. It seems like He's been revealing a bunch of things to me.
This Sunday was awesome...so was Monday for that matter, but yeah, the pastor spoke on simply abiding in Christ, letting God do all the work in You to help you become more in step with the Spirit, good stuff, and hard to put into practice if you're like me and easily become to focused on what you can do. I we just focus on relying on God in everything we do, and work on our relationship with God, then the change that happens is a by-product of that work, not on anything we as a human can affect.
Cheerio, D-Man
I've been going through a bit of one of "those times", but God's getting me through it, heaps of stuff has happened recently, and I've been getting worn down...feeling like I've had a woolen blanket wrapped around my head, and that I'm not good enough and all of that crap that happens when you just don't really have enough energy to do anything or feel anything. Been really focusing on my role in relationships with people and what God wants me to step up and be as I become a man. It seems like He's been revealing a bunch of things to me.
This Sunday was awesome...so was Monday for that matter, but yeah, the pastor spoke on simply abiding in Christ, letting God do all the work in You to help you become more in step with the Spirit, good stuff, and hard to put into practice if you're like me and easily become to focused on what you can do. I we just focus on relying on God in everything we do, and work on our relationship with God, then the change that happens is a by-product of that work, not on anything we as a human can affect.
Cheerio, D-Man
Tuesday, 1 November 2005
Faith and fiestas
These last few weeks have been quite hectic (as you probably gathered from the last few entries.) I've been going through some stuff dealing with faith and doubts and holding onto the promises of God through it all. I believe that God is really trying to get me to step up in this area, it's been quite an interesting journey.
I've been learning that you don't have to have all the answers to hold onto something by faith. In fact the less answers and more opposition to the promise, the greater your faith needs to be to hold onto it...
At the moment I have a bit of a headache, and am finishing off my last assignment for the semester..gotta be happy with that...I still haven't really recovered from last week's work fest.
Listening to Radial Angel's - Suddenly Maybe ...damn good song (big fan :P)...
On Sunday I went to the Fiesta they had down in Creswick...was alright...except that it was to sunny! I dislike the sun immensely :)...not because I'm one of those guys who hides inside all the time behind a pc or whatever...just because I have pretty sensitive skin and 5 minutes out in the sun is enough to give me a sunburn...yeah...awkward...anyway..I went on one of those trampoline bungee things..It was fun for the first 2 minutes then I was absolutely stuffed! It uses a lot of strength in your wrists and legs in places that I didn't even know about! Worth the experience though. They had this police band there that went off! The drummer was cool, sang Vertigo - U2 from behind the drum kit! Awwww yeah, that takes skill..I reckon drums are one of the hardest instruments to sing and play at the same time...just in my opinion though.
Don't you love the way that songs can recall memories (for me) stronger than a heck of a lot of other things...Switchfoot - Meant to Live reminds me of camp last year, and Building 429 - No One Else Knows reminds me of camp this year, and I'm suddenly filled with a sense of loss at...damn I miss camp, those were some of the best times I've had....
Cheerio, Damian
I've been learning that you don't have to have all the answers to hold onto something by faith. In fact the less answers and more opposition to the promise, the greater your faith needs to be to hold onto it...
At the moment I have a bit of a headache, and am finishing off my last assignment for the semester..gotta be happy with that...I still haven't really recovered from last week's work fest.
Listening to Radial Angel's - Suddenly Maybe ...damn good song (big fan :P)...
On Sunday I went to the Fiesta they had down in Creswick...was alright...except that it was to sunny! I dislike the sun immensely :)...not because I'm one of those guys who hides inside all the time behind a pc or whatever...just because I have pretty sensitive skin and 5 minutes out in the sun is enough to give me a sunburn...yeah...awkward...anyway..I went on one of those trampoline bungee things..It was fun for the first 2 minutes then I was absolutely stuffed! It uses a lot of strength in your wrists and legs in places that I didn't even know about! Worth the experience though. They had this police band there that went off! The drummer was cool, sang Vertigo - U2 from behind the drum kit! Awwww yeah, that takes skill..I reckon drums are one of the hardest instruments to sing and play at the same time...just in my opinion though.
Don't you love the way that songs can recall memories (for me) stronger than a heck of a lot of other things...Switchfoot - Meant to Live reminds me of camp last year, and Building 429 - No One Else Knows reminds me of camp this year, and I'm suddenly filled with a sense of loss at...damn I miss camp, those were some of the best times I've had....
Cheerio, Damian
Thursday, 27 October 2005
Second Allnighter
Woot for me! This is my 30th blog entry...I have been a busy bee...
Well, having survived my first attempt to get some work done...barely...I have decided to do it again!! Oh joy! First a recap. Got about 8 hours sleep that night, so not to bad, but not a catch up by any means. I had the shakes probably the worst I've ever had them yesterday, but Youth group was fun :) ...except that everyone was teasing me for having ...good hands... *blush* ... yeah anyway. I went for a drive with Widget, could barely keep my eyes open let alone focus on what he was saying so yeah we finally called it a night and I started on the best part of that day..unconsciousness...awwwww yeah!!! Which brings me to this point! er..if you leave out the rest that is. Anyway, staying at uni again tonight, so I'll be leaving another hour by hour update in this entry.
9:25PM Well once again I'm in this lab..not quite the same PC though..one row away. All is quiet, except for this guy on his phone. It's pretty much the same as last night? time....thing...a bunch of Indians are in here...I'm decked out in cds, workbooks, drinks, etc. only difference is I had less sleep to start the day on. My water is half full again. I just received two photos from this years youth camp (thanks a bunch, Jess, you rock!) So yeah, check 'em out...
10:51PM I'm actually feeling pretty good at the moment, it looks like I could actually finish this assignment tonight! Woot! A bunch of Indians have arrived, so the noise level is up a bit, but not too bad. I'm not actually to tired at the moment so I don't think I'll open my energy drinks for a few hours. I got two red eyes since the v yesterday left me with the shakes hardcore...lasted ALL day!!! kinda sucked. I swear, the effects seem to get worse and worse every time I have v.
11:50PM Yes, ten minutes before tomorrow..muhahaa. Not much happening still, even more Indians rocked up (these guys are hardcore when it comes to work apparently) My spontaneous message to everyone on the network kinda backfired when I got heaps of replies from people wanting to start 15min convos..doh, ah well. I've always wanted to do that since I came to uni.
12:58AM So yeah, time for another update. Currently listening to Switchfoot's new album 'Stars' for lack of anything better to listen to. My assignment is starting to click for me, even though I'm stuck on a particular part. Awww yeah. Might need to 'bustamove' soon...(find a bathroom for all you unenlightened heathens...yeah..I know what YOU were thinkin'). Having trouble getting another assignment working..a mate's trying to get it working at home and having trouble which means I get the wonderful wonderful job of troubleshooting via MSN...yep...
1:54AM Tonight seems way more productive for me than last time...although I seem to be getting a headache, and I keep seeing flashes out of the corner of my eye...and it's SO DAMN HOT IN HERE!!!! erk...
3:02AM Well, my assignment is getting frustrating, but at least I'm getting through it, and still got about 5-6 hours to work on it so it's all good. I'm really in the zone to work tonight I think...so awesome....I feel it's time to be slightly random...so...yer FACE!!! buy!
3:55AM Gah! So full of energy...I hate it! Always have hated that feeling of excitement just before something happens..its a pointless waste of body reserves, since you can't do anything with it but wait anyway, all it serves to do is make you really frustrated with how slowly everything goes! In other news...about half of the Indians have left the building, and I'm SO CLOSE to finishing my assignment...FINALLY! I have also finished my first bottle of red eye, but I'll wait about 15 minutes before I crack open the next one.
5:11AM Stating to get a little tired now. I reckon I've held up pretty well considering. Only a few things left to do and I'm done..woot! Two more assignments to go before the end of the day and I'll be done assignments forever..FOREVER!!! I just opened my second bottle of red eye..already I can feel the unholy energy of this evil drink flowing through my veins, making me shake with false energy....or something...
6:10AM The cleaner guy just came in again, so I guess this all-nighter is close to a wrap up. Here's to a very productive night..and I mean very productive....I got craploads done! Awwww yeah...thanks to God, energy drinks, Google, and Darcy, who was working on the same subject and didn't mind me asking him n00bish questions all night via MSN, you're a champ man ;)
7:27AM: Well, this is the last entry in my second all-nighter blog-a-long...cool word, huh, I just made it up then. The sun is shining and whereas some last minute stuff a popped up in my assignment, I think I can manage to have it fixed before 5:30 so all's well that ends well...I've had Lifehouse playing round and round for the last 3-4 hours...it's good, but it gets really old after you listen to it too much. Mmm breakfast of...whats this? Another apricot pie bar! Egad! Oh as a side note...over the period of this night I reached my 600th view..woot! Yeah exciting, huh..you can really tell I had a good night... :)
Cheerio, one tired lil monkey... *yawn*
Well, having survived my first attempt to get some work done...barely...I have decided to do it again!! Oh joy! First a recap. Got about 8 hours sleep that night, so not to bad, but not a catch up by any means. I had the shakes probably the worst I've ever had them yesterday, but Youth group was fun :) ...except that everyone was teasing me for having ...good hands... *blush* ... yeah anyway. I went for a drive with Widget, could barely keep my eyes open let alone focus on what he was saying so yeah we finally called it a night and I started on the best part of that day..unconsciousness...awwwww yeah!!! Which brings me to this point! er..if you leave out the rest that is. Anyway, staying at uni again tonight, so I'll be leaving another hour by hour update in this entry.
9:25PM Well once again I'm in this lab..not quite the same PC though..one row away. All is quiet, except for this guy on his phone. It's pretty much the same as last night? time....thing...a bunch of Indians are in here...I'm decked out in cds, workbooks, drinks, etc. only difference is I had less sleep to start the day on. My water is half full again. I just received two photos from this years youth camp (thanks a bunch, Jess, you rock!) So yeah, check 'em out...
10:51PM I'm actually feeling pretty good at the moment, it looks like I could actually finish this assignment tonight! Woot! A bunch of Indians have arrived, so the noise level is up a bit, but not too bad. I'm not actually to tired at the moment so I don't think I'll open my energy drinks for a few hours. I got two red eyes since the v yesterday left me with the shakes hardcore...lasted ALL day!!! kinda sucked. I swear, the effects seem to get worse and worse every time I have v.
11:50PM Yes, ten minutes before tomorrow..muhahaa. Not much happening still, even more Indians rocked up (these guys are hardcore when it comes to work apparently) My spontaneous message to everyone on the network kinda backfired when I got heaps of replies from people wanting to start 15min convos..doh, ah well. I've always wanted to do that since I came to uni.
12:58AM So yeah, time for another update. Currently listening to Switchfoot's new album 'Stars' for lack of anything better to listen to. My assignment is starting to click for me, even though I'm stuck on a particular part. Awww yeah. Might need to 'bustamove' soon...(find a bathroom for all you unenlightened heathens...yeah..I know what YOU were thinkin'). Having trouble getting another assignment working..a mate's trying to get it working at home and having trouble which means I get the wonderful wonderful job of troubleshooting via MSN...yep...
1:54AM Tonight seems way more productive for me than last time...although I seem to be getting a headache, and I keep seeing flashes out of the corner of my eye...and it's SO DAMN HOT IN HERE!!!! erk...
3:02AM Well, my assignment is getting frustrating, but at least I'm getting through it, and still got about 5-6 hours to work on it so it's all good. I'm really in the zone to work tonight I think...so awesome....I feel it's time to be slightly random...so...yer FACE!!! buy!
3:55AM Gah! So full of energy...I hate it! Always have hated that feeling of excitement just before something happens..its a pointless waste of body reserves, since you can't do anything with it but wait anyway, all it serves to do is make you really frustrated with how slowly everything goes! In other news...about half of the Indians have left the building, and I'm SO CLOSE to finishing my assignment...FINALLY! I have also finished my first bottle of red eye, but I'll wait about 15 minutes before I crack open the next one.
5:11AM Stating to get a little tired now. I reckon I've held up pretty well considering. Only a few things left to do and I'm done..woot! Two more assignments to go before the end of the day and I'll be done assignments forever..FOREVER!!! I just opened my second bottle of red eye..already I can feel the unholy energy of this evil drink flowing through my veins, making me shake with false energy....or something...
6:10AM The cleaner guy just came in again, so I guess this all-nighter is close to a wrap up. Here's to a very productive night..and I mean very productive....I got craploads done! Awwww yeah...thanks to God, energy drinks, Google, and Darcy, who was working on the same subject and didn't mind me asking him n00bish questions all night via MSN, you're a champ man ;)
7:27AM: Well, this is the last entry in my second all-nighter blog-a-long...cool word, huh, I just made it up then. The sun is shining and whereas some last minute stuff a popped up in my assignment, I think I can manage to have it fixed before 5:30 so all's well that ends well...I've had Lifehouse playing round and round for the last 3-4 hours...it's good, but it gets really old after you listen to it too much. Mmm breakfast of...whats this? Another apricot pie bar! Egad! Oh as a side note...over the period of this night I reached my 600th view..woot! Yeah exciting, huh..you can really tell I had a good night... :)
Cheerio, one tired lil monkey... *yawn*
Tuesday, 25 October 2005
First All-nighter and boredom
What can I say...pulling an all nighter at uni can leave you very bored. It is 9:37PM at the moment and the future is looking gray...I haven't opened my energy drinks yet, and probably won't do so until at least 1:00AM...I'll keep updating this entry until the morning...so by tomorrow this should be an interesting entry...I hope...
001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more tv than I used to.
003. I love chocolate
004. I love sleeping.
005. I own lots of books/magazines
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. I love to play video games.
008. I’ve tried marijuana.
009. I’ve watched porn movies
010. I have been in a threesome.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship!
012. I believe honesty is the best policy.
013. I have freckle free skin
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton. (who?)
015. I curse frequently.
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. I have a hobby.
018. I’ve been told I have a nice butt.
019. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me 020. I've never broken anyone elses bones.
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
023. I love rain
024. I'm paranoid at times.
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. I need money right now. (who doesn't?)
027. I love sushi.
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. I have fresh breath in the morning.
030. I have semi-long hair.
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. I was born in a country outside of the U.S
034. I shave my legs.
035. I have a twin. (I wish)
037. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
038. I like the way I look.
039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
040. I know how to do cornrows.
041. I am usually pessimistic.
042. I have mood swings.
043. I think prostitution should be illegal.
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty/hot. (er..no)
045. I have cheated on a significant other.
046. I have a hidden talent.
047. I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
048. I think that I’m popular.
049. I am currently single.
050. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
051. I enjoy talking on the phone.
052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
053. I love to shop.
054. I would rather shop than eat.
055. I would classify myself as ghetto
056. I’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. I’m obsessed with my blog!
058. I don’t hate anyone.
059. I’m a pretty good dancer. (Not yet)
060. I don’t think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
061. I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. I have a mobile.
063. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. I have never been in a real relationship before.
068. I’ve rejected someone before.
069. I currently have a crush on someone.
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
071. I want to have children in the future either adopted/blood related.
072. I have changed a diaper before.
073. I’ve had the cops called on me before.
074. I bite my nails.
075. I’m not allergic to anything deadly.
10:06PM ....Mark Schultz - He's My Son ....that's a damn FREAKIN AWESOME SONG! Gives me chills every time I hear it..
11:07PM hey, almost an hour exactly since my last entry. Well not much has happened...I'm starting to get dry eyes because of the heat in this lab..and my water's only half full....but yeah nothing substantial.
An old poem of mine, doesn't have a name...I wrote it during a difficult period of my life..you can probably guess the subject:
So many words caught up in my head, so many feelings and not enough said
For a moment so brief, you were there, helping me fly, helping me care
If you had tears, we would have cried together, if we had years, we would have lived forever
But the for irony of life not meant to be, the call of duty that called me away
Captivated lives, painfully aware, of things not said, of things not fair
Oh for another chance to do this right, but no, cannot think, cannot fight
To live without you, in this slow death, a life of loneliness in recompense
For a love, but a love lost also, a captivating thought, a single rose
Oh, for that perfect moment back again, where you and I were on track and when
I could run more than a thousand miles, just to be with you, just for a smile
"Fare thee well..." to a dear friend, life long dreams come to an end
For now, until we meet again, with broken hearts, each others to mend
So come with me now, to the completion, not enough done before life's conclusion
But hopefully enough learned to end a notion, that all you need in love is emotion
12:51AM Hmmm...I'm already getting a bit sluggish...might need to take a bit of a walk soon. The lab I'm in has about 10 Indian guys in here working on what appears to be Internet Design or something. Might crack open a bottle of the ol' red eye very shortly. The night life on MSN is very disappointing to say the least! Only a few uni people are on...no convos for me I guess...
1:45AM I've decided that I dislike Systems Programming immensely...why on earth is it even a core unit? It should be a specialist stream! It's not like the average Computing graduate is going to need to know how to write his own shells in UNIX after all! I don't have a problem with general programming units..ie Programming 1-3 but this is just crap. In other news, I've had a real craving for DC Talk and Newboys over the last few months...I really really want to get a copy of some cds!
2:42AM Been drinking a mouthful of red eye every 20 minutes or so...it has to last roughly 4 hours and then I can start on my V..which also has to last 4 hours...Hmmm...my headphones sound like crap for some reason, but only when one of the sides is on..when both are on it sounds fine...weird...anyway...back to work....
3:42AM Really feeling it now, started to drift a few minutes ago. Must...resist...temptation! Must....save...the Garlantian Empire...no wait!! Yeah anyway, I gotta keep a hold of sanity before I blaze a trail to destruction...Might need to get up and go for a walk soon...heidiho! Getting a bit peckish...I KNEW I should have brought a pack of timtams with me...doh...
4:46AM Woot! Only 3 3/4 hours to go until 8:30AM! Finished my red eye, onto the V now...also finished a self-assessment on being a team player...www.qualitiesofateamplayer.com...was quite shocked at some of the outcome scores, high and low...
5:58AM Erg...starting to drift again...time for some more V. The cleaners just came in and gave the place a rundown...rather unusual, he doesn't usually come in until around 8:00...One of the Indian guys is asleep on a bed made of chairs...there's only 4 of them left. After all that I haven't really got much work done...I mean I have got a heap done, but not as much as I thought I would. Lucky I'm doing this again on Thursday & maybe Friday night.
6:46AM Well, the last hour has been pretty uneventful...the Indian guy woke up, a few more came in. At the moment it look's like they're arguing over something...Oh did you know that if you go to Google or somewhere and use the language translation tool numerous times on the same phrase, it gets pretty messed up after a while...
7:35AM This concludes my all-nighter..whereas I wouldn't usually get up until around 8:00 and get to Uni by 9:30, what is two more hours anyway? Mmm.. breakfast of an apricot pie bar!? (random) And an orange juice..awwww yeah, it's like..all the comforts of home delivered right to your couch..I mean work desk. Those energy drinks are having their usual coming off side effects...the shakes, drowsiness, and possibly a headache later, but hey...couldn't survive without them right? right? anyways..
Until next time (hopefully not to soon), Cheerio D-Man
001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more tv than I used to.
003. I love chocolate
004. I love sleeping.
005. I own lots of books/magazines
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. I love to play video games.
008. I’ve tried marijuana.
009. I’ve watched porn movies
010. I have been in a threesome.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship!
012. I believe honesty is the best policy.
013. I have freckle free skin
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton. (who?)
015. I curse frequently.
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. I have a hobby.
018. I’ve been told I have a nice butt.
019. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me 020. I've never broken anyone elses bones.
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
023. I love rain
024. I'm paranoid at times.
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. I need money right now. (who doesn't?)
027. I love sushi.
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. I have fresh breath in the morning.
030. I have semi-long hair.
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. I was born in a country outside of the U.S
034. I shave my legs.
035. I have a twin. (I wish)
037. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
038. I like the way I look.
039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
040. I know how to do cornrows.
041. I am usually pessimistic.
042. I have mood swings.
043. I think prostitution should be illegal.
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty/hot. (er..no)
045. I have cheated on a significant other.
046. I have a hidden talent.
047. I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
048. I think that I’m popular.
049. I am currently single.
050. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
051. I enjoy talking on the phone.
052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
053. I love to shop.
054. I would rather shop than eat.
055. I would classify myself as ghetto
056. I’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. I’m obsessed with my blog!
058. I don’t hate anyone.
059. I’m a pretty good dancer. (Not yet)
060. I don’t think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
061. I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. I have a mobile.
063. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. I have never been in a real relationship before.
068. I’ve rejected someone before.
069. I currently have a crush on someone.
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
071. I want to have children in the future either adopted/blood related.
072. I have changed a diaper before.
073. I’ve had the cops called on me before.
074. I bite my nails.
075. I’m not allergic to anything deadly.
10:06PM ....Mark Schultz - He's My Son ....that's a damn FREAKIN AWESOME SONG! Gives me chills every time I hear it..
11:07PM hey, almost an hour exactly since my last entry. Well not much has happened...I'm starting to get dry eyes because of the heat in this lab..and my water's only half full....but yeah nothing substantial.
An old poem of mine, doesn't have a name...I wrote it during a difficult period of my life..you can probably guess the subject:
So many words caught up in my head, so many feelings and not enough said
For a moment so brief, you were there, helping me fly, helping me care
If you had tears, we would have cried together, if we had years, we would have lived forever
But the for irony of life not meant to be, the call of duty that called me away
Captivated lives, painfully aware, of things not said, of things not fair
Oh for another chance to do this right, but no, cannot think, cannot fight
To live without you, in this slow death, a life of loneliness in recompense
For a love, but a love lost also, a captivating thought, a single rose
Oh, for that perfect moment back again, where you and I were on track and when
I could run more than a thousand miles, just to be with you, just for a smile
"Fare thee well..." to a dear friend, life long dreams come to an end
For now, until we meet again, with broken hearts, each others to mend
So come with me now, to the completion, not enough done before life's conclusion
But hopefully enough learned to end a notion, that all you need in love is emotion
12:51AM Hmmm...I'm already getting a bit sluggish...might need to take a bit of a walk soon. The lab I'm in has about 10 Indian guys in here working on what appears to be Internet Design or something. Might crack open a bottle of the ol' red eye very shortly. The night life on MSN is very disappointing to say the least! Only a few uni people are on...no convos for me I guess...
1:45AM I've decided that I dislike Systems Programming immensely...why on earth is it even a core unit? It should be a specialist stream! It's not like the average Computing graduate is going to need to know how to write his own shells in UNIX after all! I don't have a problem with general programming units..ie Programming 1-3 but this is just crap. In other news, I've had a real craving for DC Talk and Newboys over the last few months...I really really want to get a copy of some cds!
2:42AM Been drinking a mouthful of red eye every 20 minutes or so...it has to last roughly 4 hours and then I can start on my V..which also has to last 4 hours...Hmmm...my headphones sound like crap for some reason, but only when one of the sides is on..when both are on it sounds fine...weird...anyway...back to work....
3:42AM Really feeling it now, started to drift a few minutes ago. Must...resist...temptation! Must....save...the Garlantian Empire...no wait!! Yeah anyway, I gotta keep a hold of sanity before I blaze a trail to destruction...Might need to get up and go for a walk soon...heidiho! Getting a bit peckish...I KNEW I should have brought a pack of timtams with me...doh...
4:46AM Woot! Only 3 3/4 hours to go until 8:30AM! Finished my red eye, onto the V now...also finished a self-assessment on being a team player...www.qualitiesofateamplayer.com...was quite shocked at some of the outcome scores, high and low...
5:58AM Erg...starting to drift again...time for some more V. The cleaners just came in and gave the place a rundown...rather unusual, he doesn't usually come in until around 8:00...One of the Indian guys is asleep on a bed made of chairs...there's only 4 of them left. After all that I haven't really got much work done...I mean I have got a heap done, but not as much as I thought I would. Lucky I'm doing this again on Thursday & maybe Friday night.
6:46AM Well, the last hour has been pretty uneventful...the Indian guy woke up, a few more came in. At the moment it look's like they're arguing over something...Oh did you know that if you go to Google or somewhere and use the language translation tool numerous times on the same phrase, it gets pretty messed up after a while...
7:35AM This concludes my all-nighter..whereas I wouldn't usually get up until around 8:00 and get to Uni by 9:30, what is two more hours anyway? Mmm.. breakfast of an apricot pie bar!? (random) And an orange juice..awwww yeah, it's like..all the comforts of home delivered right to your couch..I mean work desk. Those energy drinks are having their usual coming off side effects...the shakes, drowsiness, and possibly a headache later, but hey...couldn't survive without them right? right? anyways..
Until next time (hopefully not to soon), Cheerio D-Man
My Space
Hey guys, just got a new MySpace..space...check it out:
http://www.myspace.com/damiangordongray Find me on MySpace and be my friend!
Yeah, it's not much...yet...keep on checking this space for updates...
In other news...hmmm...I did have something, but it's gone, maybe next time
Catch
http://www.myspace.com/damiangordongray Find me on MySpace and be my friend!
Yeah, it's not much...yet...keep on checking this space for updates...
In other news...hmmm...I did have something, but it's gone, maybe next time
Catch
Monday, 10 October 2005
Problems & Piano
Well, what's happening in my life? The confusion meter ticked up a few points in the last week. Ever been going on your merry way through life and something happens and just like that, you've been blown out of the sky and your falling? Yeah, well that happened to me today...kinda sucked! Garrr!! *sigh* God's will be done is all I can say, I don't think there's really anything I can do about it at the moment.
I picked up the piano a few weeks ago (not literally..ouch!)...piano rocks!! Can't believe I haven't ever really gotten into it before. According to some people I have a real talent for it...but then these people always say that, and they're biased about almost everything I do..(please don't hurt me! It's the truth!)..anyways I'll start making my own judgments in a few years methinks. I can play Planetshakers "Evermore" properly now though, and Tim Hughes "Here I am to Worship"...it's awesome!
Proverb of the day: "If God says you can, then who's gonna stop you?"
I picked up the piano a few weeks ago (not literally..ouch!)...piano rocks!! Can't believe I haven't ever really gotten into it before. According to some people I have a real talent for it...but then these people always say that, and they're biased about almost everything I do..(please don't hurt me! It's the truth!)..anyways I'll start making my own judgments in a few years methinks. I can play Planetshakers "Evermore" properly now though, and Tim Hughes "Here I am to Worship"...it's awesome!
Proverb of the day: "If God says you can, then who's gonna stop you?"
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
